My busy weekend hasn’t stopped me thinking about Rob all the time. I had thought that by me taking control and ending our affair that I would cope better, but I was wrong. Instead of having any hope that he might contact me, I feel desolate as I know he won’t. I seem to be thinking about him constantly and I miss him so much. I just want to curl up and cry but I have to hold myself together. I keep reminding myself that I couldn’t let things carry on the way they were and that it was the right decision but it doesn’t hurt any less.